December 2009
Nothing
There’s nothing left to look forward to.
Even Christmas seems pretty bleak right now.
A fragile state of mind
It’s been a rough month. A really, really rough month.
I’ve had approximately: - 8 manic breaks of laughter - 4 near break downs - and one full one.
And the process is starting over again.
But what really touched me today was when:
-Ms. Gregor praised me on my photos for the paper (for all the newspapers, but this one in particular) and everyone clapped - Dimitri ran up yelling,...
Take It Off -Ke$ha
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The Best of You- The Foo Fighters
They can't exist without each other
Heaven and Hell. God and the Devil. Good and Bad. Fullness and Hunger. Being Content and being Upset. Love and Hate. Trust and Doubt. Happiness and Sadness.
You can’t have one and not the other. Because if you didn’t know one thing, then you wouldn’t know what was missing.
“Fact #2: It’s the belief in yourself that enables you to do what you wish.”
It's funny...
How when I look around, I see everything is different.
And then I look around again, and I see that some things are left unchanged.
We believe what we want to believe
We see what we want to see. We hear what we want to hear. We feel what we want to feel.
We lie to ourselves. We stretch the truth for ourselves. We make it okay for ourselves.
Because it’s what hurts us the least.
“Fact #1: I do not belong to anyone.”
Time changes everything
You can see it everywhere. In the seasons. The trees. The the path more taken. In people. Bit by bit things change. Tomorrow you can decide to cut all your hair off. Suddenly, you’re different. Apperance-wise, anyways. But mentally, there’s a reason why you cut your hair. Maybe it’s a fasion statment. But more often than not, it’s because you made a concious decision to...
To begin with...
I tried and quit every sport I’ve ever tried. It started at the age of 5. I had the fear of being injured, getting hit, breaking a bone.
Aglophobia. It means to have an irrational constant fear of pain or getting hurt physically and/or mentally.
I still have this. It just extended into the mental part as I grew older. The mental part was developed. I mean, how do you let someone in, to...